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"Lord, Make It Stop"

by charmfree

I stood quietly, surveying the rolling, sickly-green ward of the shire for what seemed an eternity, but the pain in my left foot brought me back quickly to my senses. Stay on track!, I told myself again for the three-hundredth time that day. The journey's end is near!, and laughed aloud in spite of my dour mood and the seriousness of my mission. Yeah, my mission--the joke was bitter and brought no satifaction to my dying soul. Moving once again, I startled rather than started down the narrow path towards my destination, barely preventing myself from a complete collapse with my staff. My left foot howled in a futile protest of pain at this renewed attempt at locomotion. Damn it! Damn it! If I had more time I would re-body myself, but the star poitions had told me it may already be too late, too late for all and, besides, I didn't have enough mana left to make the change.

As I stumbled forward with what little strength still remained, a universe of conflicting emotions collided within me,--seeking and rejecting, searching and abandoning--for the one true doorway of this shire that would finally, ultimately bring me closer to the peace that was so desperately desired. An end, yes, an End to this constant wheel of pain and suffering, this cycle of birth and rebirth. Where is that damn doorway? The One that will become the Exit?

I lost myself in the search, silenced the pain in my foot, hardened myself to the task at hand, even as the weakness I felt within me grow greater like a demon seed, usurping control. Finally, I stood before the diminuative door I sought. Except for my labored breathing, silence folded itself around me once again, my body and spirit coming to rest before this door, the door. My goal was within--I could sense it with every fibre of my being. I hoisted my staff and rapped sharply on the door. A long pause, more silence and I was just beginning to wonder if I had, impossibly, chosen the wrong door, but the latch slowly turned and the door opened, slightly. A young hobbit peered cautiously around the edge of the door, and I felt all my misgivings and tiredness melt away as I looked down and recognized him.

"Frdo!" I exhaled rather than spoke, a smile beginning to form on my parched lips. "At last...!"

"Yes?" said the hobbit. "Do I know you? Is that you, Gandolf?" and his eyes grew large with fright as he regarded my enormous person.

"Not really," I answered and with one swift, smooth action I wedged my staff between the door and its jamb, thrust in my other arm to grab him and then shoved him down my throat.

I laid down as best I could on the tiny porch and waited. I didn't have to wait long. Ah, that hunger and yearning were finally beginning to fade. The searching is over, the wheel has been stopped, the Exit is at hand, because, you see, hobbits are toxic.